On Identities and the Process of Being

Of course, I see “personality” not as a thing but as a constant, ongoing process. We are all being shaped and reshaped by our past, other people, our surroundings, circumstance, the world we live in, and so on. And yet, I want a word for what I am. I want an explanatory model. And I want it to come from outside of myself, because apparently I can never, ever trust myself to do things right on my own. Continue Reading

My Road to the Code

My Road to the Code | alexfelicia.net

Every day for the past week I have come to a point where I’ve had to accept that I would not be able to do any more programming that day. Either because it was getting late or because my brain was fried. Every day I have, with great regret, closed down Visual Studio and Unity3D and tried my best to put my current task out of my head. Every day it has been nearly impossible. I have never been so in love with a job – and I’m not even getting paid for this one. Continue Reading

Invisibly Different: Neurodivergence, Mental Illness and Me

How I discovered I'm both neurodivergent and mentally ill | alexfelicia.net

I think most people have probably asked themselves “What is wrong with me?” at some point. It’s a loaded question with terribly complicated answers, and it’s not the one I’m going to answer in this post. I will, however, tell you how I believe I’m different. Continue Reading

Dressing Outside the Box: My Journey of Self-Expression

Dressing Outside the Box: My Journey of Self-Expression | alexfelicia.net

Anyone who’s known me for longer than a year, however superficially, knows I’ve undergone some dramatic changes lately when it comes to how I present myself. I suppose it’s not so obvious for everyone that these changes have been a long time coming. They would have come a lot earlier, if not for the strange way my strongly individualistic nature has clashed with my equally strong desire to fit in and follow the rules. Continue Reading